"Art is not what you see, but what you make others see." ~ Edgar Degas
Got the chance (finally) to create so... here's my latest render. She's not print size as that's all on hold until I get home. I love the bar in this scene. Speaking of which... I'm off for a rum & diet myself.
"I'm going to need a stiff drink to get through this. Stiff." ~ David Rose (Schitts Creek which, ironically, is my current text tone)
Photo by Craig Philpott - Seriously, go check his YouTube channel out.
So this is going on. We've been evacuated for well over a week now. I swear I'm just waiting for Thanos to snap his fingers and enact his Endgame scenario.
We're at my mom's which ended up close to where they moved my office so that's.... good, I guess. It's just hard because it's extra/different work I'm not used to doing in an unfamiliar environment and I know they don't understand my limitations as it's an invisible disability that changes daily. Some days I can do more, others are a challenge and unless you know me it's just not easy to understand. Then I get a text this morning and (can't say where I work online) expressed their appreciation for our help and that really helped me lose a little bit of work stress. We see people who have completely lost their homes and even had no time to grab anything before the fire ripped through their town. It's so incredibly sad. My anxiety is through the roof with the work stress on top of worrying about the house, the communities we're involved with and friends homes. My husband has been able to come help out and he's been a God-send. So far the house is ok as is my office but things could change. If it goes truly f'd up and we end up having to evacuate from mom's house then I might just lose my sh!t. People on social media are truly being clueless, stupid and completely lacking in empathy so I'm staying off all but Instagram with the fire updates and discussions. These are people who look for conflict so I have no problem blocking these wastes of oxygen. Even a slight acquaintance on the fringe of our core group of friends, whose house is safe, made an insensitive comment last night. I'm just done with this sh...
Today is my only day off and while it was tempting to go golfing with my husband my pain level really needs chilling out with the dog, some fantasy artwork and maybe a little day drinking. She's been pretty stressed and everything we brought with us is covered in dog hair but she's handling it well.
I am so ready for this to be over. If all continues as it's been going ... and while CalFire has been great not everyone is happy with the USDF handling of things... our area will be ok. When we left the house the last time we brought up the firemen who had been working on our street some pizza. They appreciated it and we appreciated them.
Is “de-stress” an actual word? Regardless, the stress has been bad enough that my PA is flaring and I’m reaching for the scotch for pain relief too often so I needed a stress-free Hallmark Channel and crochet day.
I did take a Xanax to help but only because it’s better for me than a pain pill. So far it’s working but it also helps that I get to watch Jack Wagner today and tonight. I ❤️ the Wedding March series and it’s sad that tonight is the finale. He and Josie Bissett have great chemistry onscreen. And not just this series but when she played AJ on When Calls The Heart.
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Last weekend I went out on the golf course with my husband and I’m tempted to go tomorrow too.
I was so hoping to get my second ever birdie but it wasn’t meant to be, lol. BUT… next weekend we’re having a
putting green put in at home which means I’ll be able to practice. 😎 I also lost 20 lbs as of yesterday
so things are good enough that I shouldn’t let things stress me out so much. It’s easy to do though.
Tonight I plan to render an ocean scene and work on this render from last week.
“The best six doctors anywhere and no one can deny it are sunshine, water, rest, air, exercise and diet.”- Wayne Fields